Welcome Sullivan Patrick Coleman!

On Monday, March 19th, we welcomed Sullivan Patrick to the world via C-Section at 9:19 a.m. At 8 pounds and 8 ounces, he wasn't quite as big as we imagined he would be. The C-Section was a tough one (even more than normal C-Sections should be), but I'll write more about that in a later post. In fact, I might let Ben handle that one, since he was the one that witnessed everything in a really lucid state.

Since we've come home, it's been a blur of sleeping, pumping, feeding, diapering and staring absentmindedly at the television. After two days in the hospital, I decided that nursing just wasn't for me. The physical issues that made it problematic were only part of the problem. I think between the hormones, poor latching, insecurity and a host of other things - it just seemed like a better idea to pump my milk. Although that puts me into a constant cycle of feeding and pumping, it's rewarding to me to see how much milk goes into Sullivan and to be able to rely on others, like Ben, to help. I'm not sure how long I'll last and if I'll ever get ahead enough on my milk supply to stop giving about one formula bottle a day, but I feel confident in my decision. I really feel it was the right decision for me and for Sully too.

Getting back onto Lexapro has been a plus, although I still have some crazy post-partum hormones and some baby blues. At least I know it's not serious and I feel like I have a little control over them. It's amazing what small, ridiculous things make me cry!

Lastly, Scarlett has been such an amazing helper! Worries about how she'll adjust just frittered away. Yes, she has been angling for a little more attention and has been a little hyper-active, but she's also incredibly proud of her little brother and gives him loads of kisses. She wants to carry him everywhere, be involved in every diaper change and even helps me set up my pumping gear whenever I'm ready. The first few days I was home from the hospital she cried when she had to leave for school because she was going to miss Sully!

Well, forgive the rambling and any grammar issues - I'm still in a bit of a Percocet haze. I just wanted to give a quick update. I hope to have another soon.